Why Running is the WORST

That's right I said it. Running is the worst. I HATE RUNNING. It makes my whole body scream at me, it makes me nauseous and want to throw up, it makes me breathe too hard, it makes my lungs scream in protest, it makes me cough afterwards, it makes me feel horribly out of shape, it makes me want to collapse on the side of the road and lay their for hours and hours and hours and hours and hours, it makes me thirsty, it makes me sore, it makes me wish I never had to breathe again and most of all it makes me want to NEVER run again. And yet, I find myself doing it again and again. I came home from a run the other night and asked my husband where all the endorphines were that were supposed to make me feel better after running? Wasn't exercise supposed to make me feel good? Instead of making me feel like hacking up a lung and wanting to just collapse on the floor and give up the ghost. He told me to wait an hour... after an hour... I was still tired from running.

I used to go running with a good friend of mine a few years ago, we'd run on treadmills and I'd say we ran about the same pace/distance; but EVERY TIME we got off those treadmills and stretched she would talk about how good she felt after running and how good running made her feel etc. etc. etc.. I on the other hand, sat there in silence wondering how she felt so good when I felt like crap. Stretching was my favorite part of running. Haha.

Oh well. Maybe one day it will make me feel good... MAYBE. Of course that would mean I would have to keep running. And I suppose I will. The Teton Dam Marathon is this summer and the guys that Kevin works with at the Fire Station want to run the 1/2 marathon. NEVER IN MY LIFE have I wanted to run a marathon, let a lone a half marathon; but Kevin says it's something I should do at least once just to say I have. Well I don't want to say: I ran a half marathon, but it's getting me to run. It's a goal to work towards and that's the only reason I get up and run, the only reason I have a teeny tiny bit of desire to run, and that feels good. It feels good to have a goal. Even though I hate it, and it makes me feel like crap. I will do it. Normally the only thing that gets me to run is a nice green soccer field, and a round soccer ball to chase around (now that's a good time running.) Or on occasion when I'm really angry, it's a nice way to blow off steam because it makes me too tired to be angry. Eh. Here's to doing things I don't want to do just because it's good for me and I like to be able to walk up stairs or jog to the car without breathing heavily. I like it when my cardiovascular system is a champion. Here's to the strength and determination to do things I don't have hardly any desire to do.

"Exercise is not a cure-all; it will not eliminate stress or solve all of our problems. However, exercise will assist us in facing challenges with greater confidence and stamina. Because exercise so effectively releases tension built up in the body by stress, physical activity is something that should not be pushed aside in day-to-day life. Each of us has a right and a responsibility to take care of the body that the Lord has given us. When it comes to managing stress, maintaining health, and improving quality of life, exercise is well worth the effort." -Larry A. Tucker "Move More, Stress Less"